turning fifty soon

I slip on my pastel pants

and pour myself tea.

I'm turning fifty in 19 days.  I crochet now.  I have bird feeders and know the types of birds who eat.  I put the woodpecker food and the cardinal food in different places so I can enjoy both birds.  I research ancestry.  I wear sari skirts and funky boots and do not give one flying fuck what people think of me.

Yesterday, I had a shift at the mission.  I wanted to wear something with pockets (phone) and looked.  I had crop pants (I work from home, yo) and sweat pants (same), and found a pair of blue jeggings and several dress pants.  I picked the jeggings and went through my tees and sweaters - and I.. just don't know how to dress anymore.